The tiny one is in bed. We live in hope that he stays down until 11 when he will feed again. No doubt he will wake up several times a night and anytime between 3 and four for a feed again. think the endless sleepless nights are the hardest part. It makes everything just that little bit tougher. But we will get there. I know we will.

Today we celebrate our Mother. Or rather being a Mom. My jury is still out on the whole thing. The adjustment is mind bending. Looking down at my littlest boy in his bath it is all swimmingly wonderful. The crazy vulnerability of a naked baby just pulls my brain out through my heart. Happiness is a floating four month old. He smiles up and pulls on his testicles (this obviously start early) and just looks delighted with himself. Twenty minutes later he screams as he is going to sleep - for over ten minutes. This is how it is at the moment. The screaming will stop at some point and he will learn to sleep like his Dad, I am sure of it.

I am at home for the moment - redundant from outside work. At times this being at home lark is wonderful but by the end of a week I feel like a crazy person. A friend reckons one needs a certain kind of zen in order to be at home with the kids all day. I am searching...

ouch

effing heartburn.


Cat not helping by kneading

sports injuries of the week

The lil sis got the Wayne Rooney injury this week. Not by doing any real exercise but by falling up some stairs at home after breakfast. In a cast for six weeks.

And last night I was shown another sports injury which is a little nodule on the back of the wrist. Comes from playing computer games for too long.

I do not know anyone who plays real sports. No need regular life is strewn with dangers.
t es

I saw Mountain Man last night. Three young ladies in harmony with the occasional guitar accompaniment. They were very charming. Nothing new or inventive but a pleasant change from the more challenging gadget filled music I hear.

Treme

fantastic. Insurance moment in Treme. No paying out on hurricane insurance because it hasn't been proved the floods were caused by the hurricane. It sounds so very very familiar.

Do anything to get out of paying. Do anything anything to pay less and always have a loophole.

Really getting in to the episodes.

Cerulean

new word for the day.

Another Scan

Last week - before the great yawn I had a scan. All is well and we know the sex of the baby. Now all I need to do is get bigger and get the house ready.

Yawn

I work on the 9th floor of a glass building. There is no air-con and the windows open about 10degrees. There are not too many of these opening windows. So you can imagine when it gets hot or even warm in Summer everyone breaks out their little desk fans which helps bit. It gets very hot and close around our pod. Also I am five months pregnant so I tend to get over heated and tired easily.

Anyway the other day I got shouted at for yawning. From the middle of our open plan office. Quite a bit away from my desk. By a manager 2 steps ahead of me on the ladder of corporate hell. I pretty much ignored what was said because it was rude to shout at me and a pretty childish thing to do.

The whole team got into trouble after I had left for the day for talking. They were brought into the office and dressed down. Then a week later it was brought up again in the team meeting. Now my direct manger (back from her hols) keeps talking about yawning and how it shows nobody cares about the job. She keeps checking if the windows are open. This is over week after the great yawn took place.

This has to be one of the most ridiculous things that has happened to me where I work. It has stressed me out which I think is connected to being pregnant because usually I wouldn't care about these little things. Just over two months to go thankfully.